I'm tired of avoiding.
Tired if I am doing the right thing or doing things right.
If I'm doing too much or too little.
I want to quit.
Not sure what to do to get me out of this rut.
Should I leave my job?
Should I move?
Exercise every single day?
Numb myself by drinking every night?
Truth is, I've done all those things.
And I still feel tired.
I don't know how long I can put up a fake smile.
Or pretend everything is okay.
All I know is I'm tired.